What's bothering you today?

And after typing all this... this afternoon... oddly feeling better...



My dog is not feeling well and we've been treating her fleas.
I'm worried about the drop in business at the restaurant in my family's building.
I haven't been able to swing by my aunt and uncle's house for a visit.
I am over-committed tonight and something has to be cut back or out.
I need to cut back on volunteer work because I need to bring money into my house.
Getting a new-to-me car put a strain on finances.
My boyfriend might not have a job at the end of September.
I know I am about to make big leaps, personally, and I am SCARED and not sure if I am prepared
I have been doing things that scare me and doing them right away.
I still tend to people-please and it's hurting personal growth.
Normally, I am very sure of my future... as in... I go to work, come home, read/play video games, go to bed... rinse and repeat...
I have learned that I detest the 9-5 hustle because most jobs that I have had, and are available in Roanoke, do not fully use my talents or are anywhere near challenging or are just plain boring or don't pay enough for the life that I want... therefore... why waste an employer's time...
Am I worth it? The risk?
I should be writing masterpieces...
I'm worried about the election and whether I'm doing enough.... yet I feel like I'm doing too much... we've got good people who have worked hard and have earned the votes
My party needs to think bigger by going small and investing in local and rural communities... not just big cities... it means that the execs are far too comfortable in their own positions to help us in the backwoods...
Tim Kaine needs fewer votes out of Salem versus the many votes Anthony Flaccavento versus the greater votes Carter Turner will need to win... this follows the laws of probabilities and population density versus land area covered by each candidate. We need Democrats to hit critical mass by the election... even if the population of Democrat voters is smaller than Republican voters.
Critical mass leads to nucleation which leads to larger cloud condensation nuclei formations and energies which forms raindrops
Raindrops cleanses and heals wounds in the soil and sustains life

The last two thoughts don't bother me... they comfort me... science is a comfort to my soul.

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