Focus is Overrated for Creative People.

  
  This isn't the first time I have felt like this. I have been in projects where I am completely absorbed and there are moments, like today, that lack focus and control. Ah, the fun of being ADD. I have been on Celexa now for a few weeks and I can tell when I forget to take it. So, I must keep taking it. However, I have noticed the attention span is pretty darn short. I did utilize a suggestion made to me awhile back on what I feel are my worst days and here is what I came up with on 9/16/12....

  • 9:00 AMish: I lose focus when distracted by random thoughts. So, I will go on ahead and type them down and see if it helps with focusing. 
  • 11:01: I can not think simply for the sake of simplicity. Thoughts are turbulent and cascading. I may as well write them down and keep track for future reference.
  • 11:02: Anything you say, type, write, text, express to me will be magnified 4x by my mind. 
  • 11:05: This morning's Tai Chi has worn off.
  • 11:43: Confound the chemical conformations. Am I doing this crap right?
  • 12:25: Why do people who tell you that you deserve every happiness often deny it of themselves?
  • 12:51: Things that tick me off. People having "apparent" knowledge. If I am wrong in something, I do apologize. 
  I know people are like this and that I am not the only one. There is nothing wrong with random thoughts popping into your head, I have a tendency to express them out loud. I used to care what people thought. Now, I don't. This is me and that's final! I am learning to accept days like these with an open mind and not stress about it. I have these days for a reason. What if this is the day I solve Global Warming? Or that I write the best piece of poetry EVER? Or create a killer song? Do I want to miss these opportunities? Quite frankly, no. I think we need to forgive ourselves for not being "on-target" or "focused" all the time. Focus is good for Tai Chi and martial arts and helps quell the cascade of random thoughts. Plus, I think scientists would be very boring if they focused all the time. We would not have Relativity without it. 

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