Hard work, Hard rain


   Great spirits have always encountered violent opposition from mediocre minds.
Albert Einstein


   Very rarely do I blog when I am frustrated, angry, upset, sad, etc. I try to keep everything positive and light but sometimes hard honesty is necessary. If today's blog seems a bit random, it's because it is. When I work through things, the brain is on overload. Friends tell me that they can look at my face and see my brain racing. Of course, I have the ADHD that fires EVERYWHERE in my noggin. 


Herding people is like herding cats.

   So many of us are pushing for a paradigm shift on campus. More community because it seems to be our biggest problem. We heard from our lawyer of the college, Michael Pace. He told us that two things were going to be very important for the GenXers, Millenials, and the two generations behind us; leadership and citizenship. And this is the greatest problem that I see for us:

You have to come to the table in order to participate.

Not enough people are at the table as it stands.

You want change, you have to bring your game.

No one else is going to do it, but you.


   I needed to be in two places at once today, and I could not. After hearing some of the feedback from another meeting, of which I could not defend why this would be good, as a whole. 

  1. The meeting numbers are not happening now. What makes you think one big meeting per month with all three clubs individually meeting is going to work??? 
  2. What's the frakking point of adding another meeting time and further stressing out the SGA Senator who is trying to work with all three groups???
  3. I have been working on solutions to problems that can and will crop up. That's my specialty. Find problems in the organization and fix them. 
  4. None of the physics majors are going to MAA meetings or ACM meetings, none of the ACM members are going to SPS or MAA. In other words, the right hand does not know what the left hand is doing.
  5. We are one department, we should frakking act like it.

   So, there's my main rant. My other rant is about all the crap that's due this week and into next. It's Hell week at Roanoke College. Quite honestly, maybe I need to get off the internet for a bit. This is the first time in months I have felt the need to lace up my sneakers and go running (yes, with asthma) and not stop until I puke... get up and continue until I puke again... and then fall down on the pavement and hit it until my knuckles bleed and there is nothing but tears streaming down my face. That's me. That's my raw emotions. And that is as raw as I get. 
   I have to work through this frustration and I am not sure how to do it. 

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